2m♥
January 22, 2010 at 11:34 pm | In ramblings | Leave a CommentTags: 2m♥, baking, cheesecake
Baking Success!
Chocolate Swirl Oreo-crust Mini Cheesecake & Oreo-crust Mini Cheesecake :]
surprises ftw!
January 21, 2010 at 10:02 pm | In ramblings | Leave a CommentTags: surprises
Thank you Jon Tow. ♥
what’s going on?
January 19, 2010 at 8:06 pm | In ramblings | 1 CommentTags: break, school
Winter break is nearly over. I have five days left before I have to go back to school.
Frankly I’m looking forward to going back to school. Obviously the workload is not something I would ever want to come quicker, but this break has been almost disappointing (other than being able to spend time with Jon.) Actually, not almost disappointing, it’s rather disappointing now that I think about it.
Spending time with Jon has been really nice, I look forward to all the days that I go to see him or when he ventures to my “dangerous ‘hood” to see me. I think this has been the highlight and really the only good part of my break. He might be afraid that he’s taking up a lot of time that could be spent with friends, but really I think that seeing him is what’s been keeping me sane.
I can count the number of times I’ve seen or talked to anyone else on one hand. That’s… sad. Like.. What’s up? How come there haven’t been any hangouts or how come I don’t know about any of them? I think I feel more out of the loop now than ever. Of course there were plenty of times when I’ve just felt out of it, but mostly that’s just me being overly sensitive to things. But… not knowing when a friend left the state for vacation or that they’re back in school already… I don’t know what to say to that. I don’t know what’s going on in anyone’s lives anymore.
Sometimes I just want to take down the pictures on my walls at school and at home.
I also realize I don’t have anyone to talk to about the stuff that’s going on with me either.
I don’t know what the point of this post was.
A song Jon showed me. Enjoy.
My mom just asked me why I have no friends to call me to hangout. Pathetic.
changes
January 16, 2010 at 5:08 pm | In ramblings | 2 CommentsTags: change
It’s weird how some things change when you least expect it while some things never seem to change at all.
I feel like there are some things that after a while are harder than ever to mend once it gets messed up. And maybe sometimes it doesn’t get fixed at all since no one is trying.
late night websurfing
November 8, 2009 at 3:19 am | In ramblings | 1 CommentTags: craigslist
It’s interesting what you find on the internet sometimes.
don’t you just love insomnia?
October 6, 2009 at 4:20 am | In ramblings | 1 CommentTags: cough, food, sick, weddings
So my crazy sleeping schedule has gotten even more screwed up since I got sick last week. I spent the entire week sleeping regardless of the time: as soon as I got back from class, right after I’ve finished the necessary fooding. Now, thankfully, my sickness has all but disappeared except for that lingering cough that won’t go away. I’ve gone through 3/4 of a bag of Halls cough drops and it still incessantly pesters me while I’m in class or whatever. It sucks.
In other news… I GOT INVITED TO A WEDDING BANQUET!! <3 I’m so so so happy, as is my sister (although I’m not sure why she is since she’s never really shown any affinity for these sort of gatherings). It’s in late November, but I don’t know the full details yet. I don’t know why I’m so excited about weddings but gosh, I just love them. I applied for an internship at this amazing party planner’s but I never got a response which is why I accepted the job at Horizons (or whatever name it is that they call themselves by now). But I got an email asking me if I wanted to help them with an event one time. I desperately wanted to say yes, but alas, my responsible side kicked in and I said no (because I had work that day with the kids *cries) But I was pretty disappointed about it ’cause I really wanted to go and experience what it’d be like with an actual established business. Hopefully I’ll get another chance. *cross my fingers
I’ve also been eating a lot, while at the same time, not eating enough. Like that makes any sense… Since the sleeping patterns are so weird, I wake up really late. Too late to eat breakfast, and after class it’s way past lunchtime by the time I do manage to grab food. Today for example, let’s say… around 5:30ish I get something to eat. I’m hungry again in an hour or two. But I don’t eat dinner until around 10:30 or so (because I’ve managed to find something to catch my attention until then). An hour later I’m snacking away again, already hungry. I don’t get it. ><
Maybe it’s like I said on Debby’s blog (this sentence also amuses me a lot for some reason):
I’ve got an oral fixation for the deliciousness that is food.
popping out kids
August 2, 2009 at 1:41 am | In ramblings | 1 CommentTags: decisions, future, kids
So one of my volunteers thinks that in 5 years I’ll be a mother.
I must say I’d have to disagree. My sister is 24 now, not engaged yet and most certainly not giving me any nieces or nephews anytime soon. I really can’t see myself as a mommy at 25. It still seems like such a young age to already have kids although I know many people do. One student at the program I teach at is 10 or 11 and their mom is only 25. Yikes. It just seems to me like I should be doing something else at that time in my life. Who knows what though, I certainly don’t.
Which brings me to another point… I have no idea what I’m doing right now. Everyone around me seems to be so ambitious and sure of themselves. Meanwhile, I’m always doubting myself and my decisions.
…
I had this whole long post to write but I have suddenly lost the inspiration to write it.
But then again, I guess that’s just how I am.
runts and the summer
July 26, 2009 at 11:09 pm | In ramblings | 1 CommentTags: beach, summer, teaching, weather
Candyyyyy<3! And kids, ugh. ><;
Summer has definitely dipped below average after June ended. Landed a job. Pro: making cash for my spending habits. Con: hate the place, the bosses, the hours, the pay.
My kids are a little well-behaved. Well, half of them anyway. There are a few that are especially out there on the behavior scale. I yell at those a lot. It wouldn’t be too bad teaching during the summer if it wasn’t for my bosses. While the kids are excessive in acting out at times, overall they aren’t absolutely horrifying. They’re not too bad one-on-one.
The bosses, however… well they are a special category of douchebaggery. All they care about is money, money, money. I know a lot of people can be like that but seriously, I have never in my 20 years met anyone like them before this summer. They pay a crappy amount to the teachers in an extremely shady fashion, overcharge the parents by double the amount, and are disgustingly strict with the hours they give to the teachers and volunteers. Not to mention they are extremely condescending and patronizing. I can say without a doubt that I hate hate hate working for them. So has every other employee who has had the terrifying experience of working for them.
Anyway, this summer (other than work) has kind of been a bit bland. We haven’t really done much. And the thing that’s disappointed me the most so far is the weather. It’s been way too rainy and cold as far as the summer goes. And I’ve only had the chance to go to the beach once so far. DIS-A-PPOINT-ING. Hopefully it’ll be much much better before school starts
Cross your fingers dears!
I have to finish grading tests now so time to cut this short. :[ Toodles!
summertime
May 28, 2009 at 2:10 am | In ramblings | 2 CommentsTags: beach, driving, jobs, school, summer, updates, vacation, weather
Updates here have been sporadic at best. My posts have trickled from once every few days to two or three times a month, and that’s when I have something to post. I have to say I am rather disappointed, about my lack of posts as well as the severe lack of content on the days I decide to update.
So let’s see how this post turns out…
Summer is finally here, the long awaited vacation time. I know for most people this is the three month period when we all try to find jobs so that we actually have money to spend when we go hang out. As for me, job hunting has had abysmal results. I can’t really say for sure whether it is due to the crappy economy or because of my lackluster attempts at searching. I think I’m going to go with a little bit of both. As much as I want, and need, the income I just don’t want to have to work. Summer used to be a time for hanging out and having fun, although it hasn’t been like that for me since the summer I turned 16. Not that I didn’t have fun, but I really wished that I had more time with friends rather than working my summer days away. And it’s been so long since I’ve been on vacation, I think I’m due for one in the next year or so.
Summer also means driving lessons for me. Yay! Aren’t you all just so excited to have me on the roads? I am only partially looking forward to that. I am impatient to get my license because I don’t like having to rely on other people if I need to get somewhere at school. Or relying on the buses, both Stony and Suffolk. But other than it being convenient I don’t really care for it now that I think about it. The more I think about driving the lazier I feel, but that may just my mindset right now due to my sleepiness. I had a lot of fun the one time I was in the driver’s seat, but that was only because I didn’t have to worry about any rules and could just do whatever I wanted. Hopefully I can do okay this summer and get that car up to school…
I had a lot of fun last summer. I’m looking forward to seeing how this summer turns out. So far, not too great. The lack of job and vacation prospects really dampens my spirits right now. The weather hasn’t been up to par either. I know Suki and I (amongst a whole bunch of other people) have been craving to go beaching for a while now. I’m hoping the weather catches up soon. And we work out the whole transportation thing when we do. But I’m gonna keep my fingers crossed for that. Beaching’s my favorite part of summer.
i’d like to dedicate this song…
April 30, 2009 at 3:17 am | In ramblings | 3 CommentsTags: dedicate, song
…to all the people who have a problem with me. Enjoy.
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