head over heels

I really like that song a lot, especially when you pay attention and realize what the lyrics are saying.

Anyway, I feel like I’m on a rollercoaster sometimes. Not something like KingdaKa but something that dips up and down a lot. But for the most part I go through that ride with a smile or a laugh even though parts of it scare the heck out of me.

Do you ever have one of those moments where you’re just going about your business one minute all la la la and then the next minute you get one of those “Oh shit! I (insert sudden unexpected realization).” I had one of those recently in the past few weeks. Even though it has a bad undertone I can’t help but want to enjoy it while it lasts (which I have been.) Although if I were smarter I would have taken a different course of action. But obviously I am not, so just gotta make the best of the situation while it is present.

(I know I tend to be really random because I usually just type about whatever comes up in my head.)

Well last night (or was is two nights ago?) I was talking to a friend, who I guess I would consider my first love. He said I’m a really mean ex even though we never went out, which I found hilarious. He asked me a lot of stuff about the past. One of them was did I ever feel bad about the money, time, etc. I spent on him. And I honestly answered no. The reason for this is because to me this is all in the past. It’s all happened already so there’s nothing that can be altered about it. Even though I might act or say differently sometimes I think that there should be no regrets for the past, present or future. Because it doesn’t do you any good to regret stuff. All you can really do is just learn from what you did and come out a better and smarter individual.

But what do I know, I’m just Jenn. Lol. ;P