head over heels

what’s going on?

Winter break is nearly over.  I have five days left before I have to go back to school.

Frankly I’m looking forward to going back to school. Obviously the workload is not something I would ever want to come quicker, but this break has been almost disappointing (other than being able to spend time with Jon.) Actually, not almost disappointing, it’s rather disappointing now that I think about it.

Spending time with Jon has been really nice, I look forward to all the days that I go to see him or when he ventures to my “dangerous ‘hood” to see me. I think this has been the highlight and really the only good part of my break. He might be afraid that he’s taking up a lot of time that could be spent with friends, but really I think that seeing him is what’s been keeping me sane.

I can count the number of times I’ve seen or talked to anyone else on one hand. That’s… sad. Like.. What’s up? How come there haven’t been any hangouts or how come I don’t know about any of them? I think I feel more out of the loop now than ever. Of course there were plenty of times when I’ve just felt out of it, but mostly that’s just me being overly sensitive to things. But… not knowing when a friend left the state for vacation or that they’re back in school already… I don’t know what to say to that. I don’t know what’s going on in anyone’s lives anymore.

Sometimes I just want to take down the pictures on my walls at school and at home.

I also realize I don’t have anyone to talk to about the stuff that’s going on with me either.

I don’t know what the point of this post was.

A song Jon showed me. Enjoy.

My mom just asked me why I have no friends to call me to hangout. Pathetic.