So I’m in my last semester of college now. It’s a really bittersweet moment. Bitter because I feel like there are so many things that I want to do now that I only have a portion of a semester left. Sweet because I will no longer be in school. I’m gonna miss a lot of people, I made so many new friends this past semester. But I think I will visit as often as possible.

I have high hopes for AKPsi too. I’m really happy with the direction that it’s heading in right now. Alpha class turned out pretty well and I think that they are a good asset to our chapter. I’m really proud of them, especially my lil! I know she’ll help the chapter do really well after I leave school.

I know I’ll miss Jon too since he’ll be graduating a year later than I am. But that’s what he needs to do and I’m happy he has things planned out. Hopefully I’ll be working a steady job that’ll allow me to afford the LIRR tickets when I want to go see him in school.

Until next… year? Who knows…

School’s almost over. I can’t wait for the summer to arrive. I’m finally going to be able to visit China again! It’s been about 11 years since I last visited China… But I’m glad that I’ll be able to appreciate it this summer. It’s probably going to be a while until I get to go on another vacation.

Work-wise, I’m going to be going back to the same place I taught at last summer. I definitely didn’t want to, but it’s hard to find another place to work for since I’ll be starting mid-/end of June. I might also be teaching a younger class, I wonder how that will work out… But on the plus side, the people who run the program are supposedly not going to be here for the bulk of the summer, instead the program will be run by one of my colleagues from the previous summer. That is definitely a plus.

Another thing that’s happened since my last post: our colony of AKPsi finally became a chapter! It was a pretty long process, but it was worth it in the end. I met a lot of new people through this fraternity who I might not have otherwise. But it’s still going to be hard work for the upcoming year since we’re still trying to establish ourselves on campus as well as recruit new members. But I’m looking forward to it. I do feel bad that I kind of neglect Jon because of AKPsi though. ;x Hopefully that won’t be the case now that we’re finished with the colonization process.

Who knows when my next update will be… been so lazy with posting. Haha, toodles!

Baking Success!

Chocolate Swirl Oreo-crust Mini Cheesecake & Oreo-crust Mini Cheesecake :]

Frankly I’m looking forward to going back to school. Obviously the workload is not something I would ever want to come quicker, but this break has been almost disappointing (other than being able to spend time with Jon.) Actually, not almost disappointing, it’s rather disappointing now that I think about it.

Spending time with Jon has been really nice, I look forward to all the days that I go to see him or when he ventures to my “dangerous ‘hood” to see me. I think this has been the highlight and really the only good part of my break. He might be afraid that he’s taking up a lot of time that could be spent with friends, but really I think that seeing him is what’s been keeping me sane.

I can count the number of times I’ve seen or talked to anyone else on one hand. That’s… sad. Like.. What’s up? How come there haven’t been any hangouts or how come I don’t know about any of them? I think I feel more out of the loop now than ever. Of course there were plenty of times when I’ve just felt out of it, but mostly that’s just me being overly sensitive to things. But… not knowing when a friend left the state for vacation or that they’re back in school already… I don’t know what to say to that. I don’t know what’s going on in anyone’s lives anymore.

Sometimes I just want to take down the pictures on my walls at school and at home.

I also realize I don’t have anyone to talk to about the stuff that’s going on with me either.

I don’t know what the point of this post was.

A song Jon showed me. Enjoy.

My mom just asked me why I have no friends to call me to hangout. Pathetic.

I feel like there are some things that after a while are harder than ever to mend once it gets messed up. And maybe sometimes it doesn’t get fixed at all since no one is trying.

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In other news… I GOT INVITED TO A WEDDING BANQUET!! <3 I’m so so so happy, as is my sister (although I’m not sure why she is since she’s never really shown any affinity for these sort of gatherings). It’s in late November, but I don’t know the full details yet. I don’t know why I’m so excited about weddings but gosh, I just love them. I applied for an internship at this amazing party planner’s but I never got a response which is why I accepted the job at Horizons (or whatever name it is that they call themselves by now). But I got an email asking me if I wanted to help them with an event one time. I desperately wanted to say yes, but alas, my responsible side kicked in and I said no (because I had work that day with the kids *cries) But I was pretty disappointed about it ’cause I really wanted to go and experience what it’d be like with an actual established business. Hopefully I’ll get another chance. *cross my fingers

I’ve also been eating a lot, while at the same time, not eating enough. Like that makes any sense… Since the sleeping patterns are so weird, I wake up really late. Too late to eat breakfast, and after class it’s way past lunchtime by the time I do manage to grab food. Today for example, let’s say… around 5:30ish I get something to eat. I’m hungry again in an hour or two. But I don’t eat dinner until around 10:30 or so (because I’ve managed to find something to catch my attention until then). An hour later I’m snacking away again, already hungry. I don’t get it. ><

Maybe it’s like I said on Debby’s blog (this sentence also amuses me a lot for some reason):

I’ve got an oral fixation for the deliciousness that is food.

I must say I’d have to disagree. My sister is 24 now, not engaged yet and most certainly not giving me any nieces or nephews anytime soon. I really can’t see myself as a mommy at 25. It still seems like such a young age to already have kids although I know many people do. One student at the program I teach at is 10 or 11 and their mom is only 25. Yikes. It just seems to me like I should be doing something else at that time in my life. Who knows what though, I certainly don’t.

Which brings me to another point… I have no idea what I’m doing right now. Everyone around me seems to be so ambitious and sure of themselves. Meanwhile, I’m always doubting myself and my decisions.

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I had this whole long post to write but I have suddenly lost the inspiration to write it.

But then again, I guess that’s just how I am.

Summer has definitely dipped below average after June ended. Landed a job. Pro: making cash for my spending habits. Con: hate the place, the bosses, the hours, the pay.

My kids are a little well-behaved. Well, half of them anyway. There are a few that are especially out there on the behavior scale. I yell at those a lot. It wouldn’t be too bad teaching during the summer if it wasn’t for my bosses. While the kids are excessive in acting out at times, overall they aren’t absolutely horrifying. They’re not too bad one-on-one.

The bosses, however… well they are a special category of douchebaggery. All they care about is money, money, money. I know a lot of people can be like that but seriously, I have never in my 20 years met anyone like them before this summer. They pay a crappy amount to the teachers in an extremely shady fashion, overcharge the parents by double the amount, and are disgustingly strict with the hours they give to the teachers and volunteers. Not to mention they are extremely condescending and patronizing. I can say without a doubt that I hate hate hate working for them. So has every other employee who has had the terrifying experience of working for them.

Anyway, this summer (other than work) has kind of been a bit bland. We haven’t really done much. And the thing that’s disappointed me the most so far is the weather. It’s been way too rainy and cold as far as the summer goes. And I’ve only had the chance to go to the beach once so far. DIS-A-PPOINT-ING. Hopefully it’ll be much much better before school starts

Cross your fingers dears!

I have to finish grading tests now so time to cut this short. :[ Toodles!